VISIONS

part 1

ancient people of the infinite sun
it is time to remember how to live as one
admit you always knew what we came here for
accept your sacrifice and be willing for more

the pineal gland as a light never sad
you have powers to distinguish the good from the bad
after everything will perish it will rise again
like the sun and the moon like the evil and men

a sky beneath the sea and an endless field of gold
there you will find again the souls that you have sold
we shall be reborn as the ancestors agreed
the ones that we're made of decided we will live

if you believe in angels you will be free again
they look just like you
please listen to them
they're sayin' your words so trust your own faith
send back the work of darkness
become the universe

I invoke the spirits to open us the doors
I'm asking their forgiveness for all the bloody murders
we met strange dimensions unknown until now
we'll never die again
they're teaching us how

drown in this magical never ending story
forget about time and it's passing glory
dream the crystal death in your consciousness self
forget the laws of space on that dusted shelf

be good they say
follow the sphere they say
have no fear they say
come home they say

part 2

the dreams are the path to unknown
dream and find ways do discover
it is you when you're resting from hell
it is heaven of energy consuming the matter
a matter of time
a matter of words
a matter of faith
a matter no more

the big old bird staring at me
from that big old tree
it seems to be
it seems to me

a lotus flower in front my eyes
a scarab a stone and the cross of all times
a key is the ring from the mother of all
the fog is hiding the mirror of soul

a good day to start a new end for fun
a good day to go out and buy your first gun
the rain that is falling is that autumn again
it is such a good moment to kill your best friend

that's not another illusion
you're not faking this one
you knew it will happen'
you knew that day will come

and after a while
not knowing what to do
you finally realize
your best friend was you
now shoot
don't look back
no future
no tears
no purple shadows
no borders
no fears

in a black frame you picture
the way you will fade
you pray for the pills
to keep you awake

part 3

loose control
is a one way ticket to the realms of bliss
find the balance
between the lies and truth you were promised
heal the ending
embrace the new beginning with your broken heart
watch the rain
what if it would be for the last time

you see yourself in the mirrors
you know you have thoughts and you breathe
you wonder what miracle brought you here
you understand that you live just to give

an unbreakable chain remembered you how it started
reinventing the myth that you thought was forgotten
a queen dressed in velvet wearing a crown she don't want
only to make you aware of the life that you found

numbers are symbols and words are insane
strange images pictured when livin' in vain
a big storm is coming
dark clouds for tomorrow
then you will wear the crown
of infinite sorrow

so now is the moment
when you choose
not to follow the screen-play
so now it is happening
when you loose
writing a screen-play

ride on the back of the infinite snake
fly with the hawk in the heart of the lake
you waited so long for yourself to return
so she was right about being reborn

we will meet again
like never before
I die my own death
and I'm asking for more
I love you
good night
and the days gone bye
two livings of hope
which sometimes cry

THE RABBIT IN THE MAGIC BUS

I

what is this all about
where are we coming from
what makes us bleed and breathe
what's giving us this form

when are they coming back
what's gonna happen then
it's not a question if
the question it is when

so take your chances now
don't loose a minute please
we're needing all of you
and you know what it means

the power is in you
buried so deep inside
the truth from which you run
the sun you try to hide

you will remember me
you won't see me here
there are no borders now
and there's no more fear

I'll hit you in the face
I will tell you good night
no need for you to beg
it is too late to fight

II

forgive yourself and fly
the shadows are no more
alone you're dead and gone
the evil was a whore

sorry for the delay
I never meant to leave
but I am here now
my gift is to forgive

and everyone will see
no one will can deny
you have faith you will see
nonbelievers will die

where are we coming from
where are we going to
we heard a million lies
so what you gonna do

follow the white rabbit
don't even say a word
the words are meaningless
shut up and watch the road

I'll do what I have to
the necessary wrong
to understand the life
and I will become strong

III

the big city's burning
the evil died again
I am the next omega
I am a holly man

last night I dreamed I died
I dream a lot these days
the hope is coming back
I only hope she stays

I took the magic bus
a million miles away
you'll never find me now
I'm too far gone today

the snake becomes an owl
stone circles on the height
the forest and the wolf
are spirits of the night

the lake is hiding me
inside the seventh sun
the rabbit knows the way
he tells me I'm the one

and now that I have failed
the stronger I've become
i met my other self
i know thy will be done

from circle to sphere

one day
i was walkin by
in the valley of death
dressed in black
one fight
i was fighting back
a war inside my heart
dressed in black

but right there
in the middle of nowhere
right across the big street
summer heat
it was
so very unreal
for myself to feel
what was next

surrounded by a strange bliss
i sold my soul for one kiss
the dream so far is goin' alright
i'm not dead in the absence of life

"eye"dentify with everything in this world
smoke peace with the devil
now you're both strong
and fuck the guns
for your sons
give happening a chance
circle completed
mission acomplished
password inserted
let the rabbit go

u don't need to be forever young
u already are forever
why wait?
trust yourself
have faith
do it no matter what.

without the first word
there's no story to tell
the beautiful truth
revealed by the bell
it's not enough to want
it's not enough to can
imagine real fiction
understand

the mother
the father
the sister
the brother
another
another
another
it's our turn

beyond and back

it's not about a girl and a boy
it's about the sun and the moon
it's about the son and the mom
about angels and stars about to become

i remember some waves
and the seven days
and the seven nights
when i saw your eyes
not waves of the sea
not waves of an ocean
pure vibration
in every dimension
stay awake man
don't go
it is happening now
don't be afraid
even if
u never been that far

one two three four five
i've been waiting for this all my life
six seven eight nine zero
i'm no longer dead
no longer a hero

that day changed it all forever
and now i'll never stop the game
i'm not going back to nowhere
i am always somewhere
the moon was right
the feeling to jump of the building
ran with the demon
back to hell
my eyes saw the other option
choose to be the chosen
be alive

don't loose the hope u are almost there
live to give
remember to share
there is an escape through the mountains to the ocean
experience life with this new perception

this will never end
so please stop pretend
i know u're a liar
you are not my friend
right here
is another mistake
waiting to be done
by you

sound of a rain of stars
fool moon night
the seven sins
doin' all right

a film

flowers in the gold field
not letting you go
the fairy with that spaceship
letting you know
mysterious mountains
hide a treasure to share
lost in the jungle
you have to play fair

leave behind the lie
and then you shall slide
the treasure has no meaning
for ego or pride
diamonds gold and silver
a story of words
instantly will kill
the soldiers with swords

if you have a good heart
the gate will let you in
if you are a bad guy
you'll pay for the sin
travel with a speed
bigger than the light
through the universe
not willing to fight

god is the best you can be
evil too
heaven's on your way back from hell
and so are you
we're doin' the sun dance
on the moon
get ready for the contact
someday soon

i just got it
love a dream
wish what you're waintin' for
live in a film
jump in the sky
life will never die
stars child
into the wild

the birth
the life of the father
the love
the son of the mother
the death
the holly ghost

the trinity in a circle
one circle of a sphere
imagine one of them
crystal clear
heal my heart
save my world
feel my thoughts
disolve me

INVOCATIONS

Hollow Grams

runnin' far to forget
runnin' fast to the end
i can't get off this bed
i can't wait to be dead

if this is how i fade
well there's no big surprise
this time i will not fail
please accept my demise

your hologram is fake
but i will find my way
when it's my turn to kneel
i have nothing to say

she never died i guess
all this life is a lie
at least i remember
why i fell from the sky

everything will vanish
our last chance destroied
never-ending stories
for an infinite void

and i trust this future
i understand the past
the moments that we've shared
here will forever last

i am burried alive
there's no point to deny
i hate you for tryin'
i will never comply

i just can not believe
that i still have you here
i can feel your warm breath
and i have no fear

and now i'll fly away
just like i always do
i remember the light
so you can see it too

only the end itself
could be my happy end
calling your name i die
this whisper is my friend

Meth

Statue of your pain
To remind us the life
And the beauty of death
On a blade of a knife

Increasing the power
Of an unknown device
Will end this world again
So you better think twice

A portrait of evil
Hangin’ sad on the wall
Reminds you of nothing
It’s consuming your soul

A message from beyond
In a bottle you get
The words are deceiving
So it’s time to forget

Alone with the darkness
Growin’ the light inside
Immortality fades
To the sun that you hide

Forever and ever
Never neverland
Your heart will be broken
Your heart will be mend

Surrender your demons
Walk alone on the path
This is your salvation
It ends in a bloodbath

Adam Eve Abel Cain
And the fifth one named Seth
Right after the murder
The snake gave them meth

It’s my last summer here
Rainy days on the throne
If you’re askin’ me to
I will leave you alone

I’ll be quiet and sad
And I’ll kiss you good night
In your dreams dead and gone
On the wings of a flight

Remember to stop there
At the end of the line
The devil will ask you
For a frame of your time

Give everything to him
You need nothing at all
New kingdom is waiting
The autumn will fall

Compleating my mission
I discover the source
I’m closing the portal
I have no remorse

Physics don’t apply here
Now i am someone-else
I am talkin’ to gods
I believe in intense

And lost in this ocean
So deep inside my mind
I floaded this world
The night that I cried

Take me with you again
I can’t stand anymore
I will give my soul to
The one that I adore

A century of faith
Defeating nothingness
A journey of yourself
Regarding loneliness

No further images
Of your former choices
No more echoes in vain
From those ancient voices

The pictures that I’ve burned
Left me alone and lost
I reach my hand for you
Even I’m just a ghost

Everything everyone
Be aware of the sun
The empires will crowl
When the stranger will come

And all the worlds will pray
For a blink of an eye
The eye will be open
If you give it a try

The shields and the armors
Will serve you no more here
And shadows of wispers
Are trembling so near

To see more dimensions
In order to achieve
Understand the meaning
To love is to forgive

This madness has to stop
I’ll never ask a friend
I’ll blow myself away
This is the fuckin’ end

The Moon

when you're at the bottom
you discover the truth
conquering your fear
you rememeber your youth

hell around the corner
the future is insane
you invented the past
you invented the pain

maybe i will go now
maybe it's time to leave
i will say it again
to love is to forgive

at the end of my life
only one thing i'll say
i forgive all of you
it has finished today

please tell me a story
just take me somewhere else
we're floating together
across the universe

if you're feeling alone
when your way seems to fade
reconsider your thoughts
and the games that you played

ask yourself who you are
ask yourself why you're here
you will see where you are
you'll see it so clear

so please come take my hand
i am givin' you life
nothing seems to matter
when this death is your wife

i wonder if jesus
existed in this world
i wonder if evil
believes what they've been told

when i'll know the answer
i'll be sliding through time
i'm pushing the limit
i'm crossing the line

the space is not real
you created a lie
facing reality
all the angels will die

because angels are fake
the life dissapears
this will not be my grave
i'm one with the sinners

alone in the darkness
i remember the end
i don't even care now
i will never pretend

just show me the way out
i promise i won't tell
take me on your flight snake
we'll overcome the spell

i will paint her portrait
this dimension is sad
i see in the future
we are already dead

spirits invocations
and the hawk and the snake
the future had happened
the cold past is a fake

Your love is the answer
for all this life of mine
never forget the snake
until the end of time

i'll draw the circle now
and I will step inside
no reason to fear
I got nothing to hide

remember the tears
you cried on the back seat
memories not dissolved
’95 summer heat

your dad is driving fast
he’s takin’ you away
I scream your name I run
I lost my soul that day

The dreams of my moment
They all belong to you
a thousand lives I live
but none of them is true

and i will always be
alive somewhere around
to me you are the one
while I‘m just lost and found

when i see my shaddow
at the end of the sun
i forget the evil
i forgive what i've done

this world will fade away
millenniums will come
the time is runnin' out
we'll learn to live as one

you are the miracle
the purpose of the sign
step forward in the dream
aware of the land mine

I choose to be alive
i'm wondering through time
I always find you here
and you forgive my crime

In The Land Of A Fairytale

the dark side is not far
and i love her so much
the devil is so close
and i can feel his touch

that's why it's so funny
because everything's true
nothing's impossible
where i'm going to

i am dreaming again
it's like never before
you wanted to see me
i am giving you more

i'm giving you the chance
to find yourself again
i'm giving back your soul
i take away your pain

the sun is my father
my mother is the moon
i'm poisoning venus
with this old silver spoon

my father's my father
and i am what i am
on the wings of the hawk
i'm playing the snake game

O MOARTE CAT O VIATA

1

inevitabil
toti cei care au inteles aceasta lume
si pe celelalte
n'au fost vreodata altfel decat singuri
au trait in tristete
adanca
amara
nemangaiati decat de adierea sfarsitului
iar cand aceasta a fost un pas mai aproape
s'au aruncat in inima uraganului cel de pe urma
zambind
amar
dar zambind

eu unul n'as vrea sa ma mai intorc aici
niciodata
in nici un alt vis
al meu sau al altcuiva

dezamagit de fiinte si nefiinte
pierdut printre amintiri care nu'mi apartin
aleg sa se termine
aici
acum

fericirea e o vraja
din care cand te trezesti
numai moartea te mai poate salva

ce'ti doresti nu exista nicaieri
ceea ce iubesti e scrumul unei pareri de rau
dorinta a fost atat de arzatoare
incat a lasat cenusa in locul galaxiei de lumina
intuneric infinit

v'am mintit
de fapt n'am avut nici o sansa inca de la inceput
v'am tarat in razboiul asta crud si inutil
doar pentru propriul meu amuzament aparent de neinteles
care nu se mai satura sa distruga tot ceea ce exista
n'am avut nici o clipa intentia sa castig
v'am ademenit degeaba

m'am plictisit aici
ratacit printre posibilitati limitate
printre respiratii inselatoare si soapte fara sens
am obosit de'atatea lacrimi mistuite in saruturi veninoase

a nu fi
alegerea nici macar nu imi apartine
experimentul a esuat
holograma s'a dizolvat

pacat ca spectacolul se incheie astfel
am senzatia ca ne'am indeplinit misiunea
intr'un fel pe care nu'l putem intelege
de care nu ne putem bucura
si ca speranta noastra ca totul sa fi contat macar
nu e decat cea de pe urma manifestare a vanitatii

acest pustiu nici n'a existat

2

sincer
am inima prea plina de nisipul desertului
ca sa imi mai para rau.
dupa ce'mi trec nervii,
se instaleaza scarba.
apoi tristetea.
iar la sfarsit, ramane golul.
unde este iertarea in ecuatia asta?
pacea?
iubirea?
nicaieri.
singuratatea ca antidot.
anti tot.
ura voastra ma ispiteste sa va uit.
ma recunosc,
imi marturisesc sinele in oglinda
si, odata cu ea,
dispar.
si, odata cu mine,
tot.
nu voi lua inapoi darul pe care l'am facut,
doar ma voi dizolva din amintire
ca o picatura de ploaie in ocean,
ca o lacrima luata de val de pe tarm.
ma duc acasa.
pacat.
as mai fi ramas.
dar nu mai exist...
de ceva timp...
cred...
simt...
se face dimineata.
rasare soarele.
am terminat aici.
ma transform in soim si zbor spre apus,
in inima sarpelui.

3

acest ospiciu e un cabaret
poti sa privesti
tacut
retras
e suficient ca sa nu mai intelegi
daca devii personaj
sau ai ramas un spectator model
aplaudand fericit
in iertare
impacat
in pacat
poti sa pari revoltat
prefacandu'te ca e o greseala
ca nu meriti sa fi acolo
poti desigur sa te alaturi de buna voie
oricum nu'ti vei aminti
cine a ales pentru tine

cei de pe scaunele din jurul tau
sunt sperietori de ciori
din care ciugulesc berze de tinichea

canta muzica
apar siluete de dupa cortina de catifea violet
e chiar doctorul
spunand glume
iar asistentele astea danseaza
aruncand pumni de pastile inspre luna
momind'o printre zabrelele a caror vopsea alba
numai timpul si'o mai aminteste
in locul vopselei e sufletul mainilor care se tineau strans
sperand o salvare
asteptand scaparea
lacrimile curse pe obrajii resemnati intre zabrele
au erodat fierul
l'au topit demult
desi pare inca solid

evadarea nu e o optiune
pentru ca locul asta
tu crezi
ca nu exista
si daca ar exista si ai scapa
incotro ai alerga catre casa

magicieni apar si dispar
clovni ma sperie sau ma fac sa rad si sa plang
pana si sperietorile s'au imprietenit cu berzele
si ciugulesc impreuna pastilele multicolore
aruncate necontenit de asistentele fara chip
care danseaza in jurul focului asta
aparut dintr'odata
de nicaieri
poate ca mi se pare
dar vad cum ard
insa nu simt
nimic
niciodata

oare sunt si eu o sperietoare
sau o barza de tinichea
sau o asistenta
sau un scaun
sau doctor
sau scena
sau zabrelele
sau luna
sau lacrimile
sau iepurele cu ceas de buzunar
sau cortina
sau cartile de joc
sau magician
sau focul
sau clovnul
sau pastilele

se succed cu repeziciune
milenii de inclestare
destine
povesti
univers dupa univers
infinit dupa infinit
si lacrimile mele culg pe obrajii lipiti de zabrele
topind un fier a carui vopsea a uitat'o si timpul
mainile mele mimeaza din tot sufletul
cu ultima suflare
o incercare de a smulge din perete
ceva ce nu exista

muzica nu mai canta
vad iepurele disparand dupa cortina de catifea violet
fara ceas
cenusa si scrum
focul care n'a fost a mistuit iluzia
micul nostru teatru e fum
nici macar atat
uite
gata
bucuresti
4 august 2011
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